By Patrick Hawthorne
In my younger days – my rocking – air guitar playing – singing into the make believe banana microphone days – I enjoyed jamming to one song in particular. It was White Snakes, “Here I Go Again.”
And here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known
Like a drifter, I was born to walk alone
And I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time
Ok… that was a fib. It was just yesterday that I was jamming out but please keep it our secret. We don’t want the neighbors talking.
While the song has a totally different meaning than what I am writing about, it has recently come to mind thanks mainly due to a recent string of Geico commercials. Yet, the lyrics above fit perfectly with my thoughts for today.
For the past several weeks, memories that I thought were dead and gone have begun to spring up out of nowhere. Issues that I haven’t given a single thought about in many, many years have suddenly begun to surface and show their ugly head.
Que the White Snake song. “And here I go again on my own…“
At first I was a bit miffed that these issues were rearing their ugly head. How dare that ole devil bring up these long dead issues. “I rebuke you, you foul spirit.” But then I realized I was blaming the wrong source. I realized that the resurfacing of these memories was a God thing, a Holy Ghost “Remember When” session. “Whoopsie! Sorry Lord.”
Ya see… Lately I have been praying – with great sincerity, mind you – for the Lord’s help in walking out a life of holiness. It has been a struggle, no doubt, with a plethora of bumps, bruises, and scrapes to show the many times I have fallen flat on my face. Yet, my case is not unique. Anyone striving to walk a life of holiness will not be exempt from the Holy Spirit “Remember When” sessions.
Everyone has their so-called demons from the past that they must contend with; their skeletons in closets. No matter the area of your struggle or the temptations and failures you are dealing with today, there is always a root cause, a first time, that began it all. Sometimes we wish the Lord would wave a magic wand and instantaneously heal us of certain life’s issues. Yet, unless we are willing to allow Him to dig down and yank out the roots of what began it all, those issues will continue to resurface over and over again… just like those Geico commercials that I thoroughly enjoy but could live without.
As for me, the Lord is simply bringing up unresolved past issues from my early child hood that was the root cause for many of the issues I face today. And, as He shows me these things, I ask Him for total healing in that area. I don’t dwell on it. I don’t beg and plea for forgiveness… I DON’T BLAME ANYONE INCLUDING MYSELF. If forgiveness for others or myself is needed, I forgive. And mostly, I simply ask the Holy Spirit to intercede on my behalf with prayers that I don’t quite know how to pray. And lastly, I move on.
So now, when these issues surface, I will not sing, “And here I go again on my own…” For, I am not on my own. I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me and the peace of God through my Lord Jesus to help me through the root yanking process. So do you. You just need to ask in sincerity. Be blessed.
26 Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. 27 Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God. Romans 8:26-27 KJV)