By Patrick Hawthorne
Many professed Christians seem not to know what it is to be in a truly revived spirit. They know not what it is to travail in birth for souls in prayer, with strong crying and tears; and if a revival begins they are apt to get up in their sleep and bustle about, and do more harm than good. C.G. Finney 1874
Of late, I have been examining my heart. I, along with many others have sensed the call upon the Church to be revived from its deep slumber. Yet, as I pray and seek the Lord, I realize that something is missing. Yes, I have a deep yearning for revival but at the same time there is an undeniable vacuum sucking the very life from my prayers. It is as if I’m spinning my wheels but making no forward progress.
Ask and it will be given to you. Seek and you will find. Knock and it will be opened to you. * Through prayer and seeking the Lord, I know where the problem lies. The problem is with me. I accept that I have become more of a stumbling block for the Kingdom of God than a light. Before I can pray for the revival of the Church, I must pray for revival within me. I must break up this fallowed ground of my own heart.
The truth is that the hardness of my own heart, if left unchanged, will only cause more harm than good should revival break out. With a heart so out of tune with the heart of God, my exhortation to the lost would result in encouraging the impenitent to continue their unrighteous path rather than cause a conviction upon them whereby they know they must be saved?
I desperately desire revival. Therefore, let revival begin with me. “Oh Lord, that I would know what it is to travail in birth for souls. That I would know what it is to see as You see and to love as You love. Lord, that my food would be to do Your desire.”
Sow to yourselves in righteousness, reap in mercy; break up your fallow ground: for it is time to seek the LORD, till he comes and rains righteousness upon you.
(Hosea 10:12 KJV)