By Patrick Hawthorne
Thoughts…they bombard our minds. Evil thoughts, negative thoughts, troubling thoughts, thoughts of doubt – they attack without mercy. Day and night the war wages on. Fiery darts of doubt strike with pin point accuracy causing us to cry out, “Oh wretched man or woman that I am, who or what can or will deliver me?”
On the outside our appearance may be one of strength, of one who has it all together. Yet, we know that if they – the world – could truly see us, see our inner self, they would know that it is all a façade. Tears flee from us. Our eyes have become as a dry well.
I reach for my Bible. Silently, I turn the pages. My eyes rest on my redemption. “Bless the Lord, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name!” I ponder the words… “Bless the Lord, O my soul…Bless the Lord, O my tormented mind.
From within the depths of my soul, hope begins to rise. “Bless the Lord, O my soul.” I continue to read, muttering to myself. My eyes drift from word to word. “And forget not all His benefits.”
Slowly, steadily, a light is reawakened within me. I whisper the words… a prayer of faith. “Oh Lord, Your Word is a lamp unto my feet. It is a light unto my path.* Faith resurges. “It is Your Word, O Lord, that calms the war raging within me. It is Your Word that restores my joy and my peace. Thank You Jesus, for You are the Word. You are my Light… You are my peace, my joy, my strength…”
“You, O Lord, have forgiven all my iniquities. You O Lord have healed all my diseases. You, O Lord, have redeemed my life from destruction by crowning me with Your loving kindness and tender mercies.” **
On the outside my appearance is one of strength, for on the inside the Word has strengthened me. My mouth, my heart, is satisfied with good things; my youth is renewed like the eagles. “Oh wretched man that I am,” is but a fleeting memory as I walk in the goodness of my Savior. Thank You, my Father. Thank You, Jesus. Thank You, Holy Spirit. I am at peace… I am of sound mind.
*Psalm 119:105; **Psalm 103:1-5