Confessions of a Christian Atheist

By Patrick Hawthorne


As I read the words of a fellow blogger, my heart dropped. Rarely has such a word rocked my world as what this author posted.  As such, it has been continuously on my heart for the last several days.

The blogger of which I mention posted a statement from the late Charles Spurgeon concerning practical atheism.  A practical atheist, to put it simply, is one who acts as if there is no God.  This is more for convenience than for religious beliefs.  By not believing in God, they deceive themselves into believing that they are free to do as they please.

In his statement Charles Spurgeon labeled Christian’s, who hide their sins from man but not from God, practical atheists.  The reason being is that they are more concerned with what man may think of their sins than with what God does think.  They deceive themselves thus creating a perverted view of God’s grace… “I can do whatever I want and ask God to forgive me later.”

“Is this true,” I thought?  “Am I a Christian atheist? A quick mental account of the past couple of days was all I needed to acknowledge my guilt.  I was indeed a Christian atheist.

You may think that I write of obvious and blatant sins that easily beset me; that easily beset us all.  If so, you would only be partially correct.  No, I’m also referring to the little sins that seem to get swept under the rug as nonconsequential.

Take for instance the small gossip with a coworker.  Would I have had the same conversation with a church member?  What about that movie I watched the other day…would I have dared watched it in the company of my pastor?  How about that moment when I snapped at my wife because I was angry with the dog?  Would I have acted that way in the presence of my boss who I frequently witness to concerning the love of Jesus?
With a reflective and repentant heart, I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for losing sight of the true meaning of His grace.  I asked forgiveness through my confession that I am…I was a Christian atheist.  Be blessed.

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8 comments on “Confessions of a Christian Atheist
  1. This post hits a lot of nitty-gritty in the life of a Christian. Hmm! Food for thought.

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  2. Yes’m…and I often have a lot more of the gritty than the nitty. 🙂

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  3. Jules says:

    Reblogged this on Shiny Thoughts and commented:
    There’s some deep wisdom in here.

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Jules says:

    Reblogged this because WOW!
    Guilty as charged and I thank God for mercy and a fresh start today.

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Hi Patrick, This must be the week to get one’s world rocked and aren’t you thankful we have a Heavenly Father who disciplines us by thumping us in the head once in awhile when we get too complacent about sin? I got a thumping too, on a different matter, but a thumping still. It’s easy to become so enamored with the presence of others that we forget we are in the presence of God. May God keep both of us always mindful of His presence. I recently expressed to an avowed atheist that there was no reason to be an atheist if their was no God and that I held out hope for him because I knew God believes in him. The same is true for us who believe but sometimes live differently. We are all hopeless but God believes in us and expresses that belief through His Grace. It’s an amazing thing! God bless.


  6. The Isaiah 53:5 Project says:

    I posted that quote because It really got me to do some serious self-reflecting. I have to admit that I have been a practical Atheist at times too.

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