By Patrick Hawthorne
I have a wild imagination. I joke with my wife that I have an inner sanctuary in the midst of my cranium; a place where I can frolic unhindered through fields of random thoughts. For this blog, I will momentarily allow you to enter that sanctuary in order to reveal a portion of what I have been thinking.
In the sanctuary of my mind, I am seated in a circle with a group of other people. These people are my peers, my fellow Big Mouths. Perhaps I have seen you in my group. Anyways, in my mind I know the time has arrived for me to come to terms with a truth that has plagued me for years. Standing to my feet, I address the circle.
“I…I…” My stammering is evident. Sweat is now beading upon my brow. Taking a deep breath I mutter to myself, “Come on big guy…You can do this. Suddenly I blurt it out! “My name is Patrick and I have a big mouth!” There, I did it! Feelings of relief wash over me.
“Hi Patrick,” the group responds in unison!
It is at this moment that I boot you out of my cranium and close the door. I do this for your safety, so please do not be offended for the swift kick to the back side.
I admit it. I have a big mouth. Not only do I have a big mouth, but I have the propensity to employ sarcasm on a grand level. Most times, my sarcasm is limited to jolly banter. However, there have been times when the sarcasm has been cutting and meant to offend.
I offer you no excuses for my poor behavior, nor do I ask for your sympathy. I am merely listening to the convictions of the Holy Spirit and making necessary changes in my life. In other words, I am judging myself now in order to not be judged later.
Living the life of a Christian is not always easy, especially when it comes to monitoring what comes out of our mouths. Yet, it is vital to our wellbeing. I wish I could say that it gets easier with age but then I would not only be a big mouth but a big mouth liar.
So, the question is this; what am I doing about it? First of all, I’m asking the Holy Spirit for help. Secondly, I’m taking it one day at a time. This morning I made up my mind that, for today only, I would not gripe, complain, use hurtful sarcasm, or gossip.
To be honest, it has been a really pleasant day. I have not made anyone mad nor have I had to repent for saying anything stupid. Hmmmm….Maybe there is something to this. I think I will try it again tomorrow.